Here it is!

So, here it is:



This is my hair after it was cut, I had not played with it yet.
I absolutely love it!
I really think it is going to be easy to take care of and not much work.

My tresses are a mess!

I hate my hair.

It is long, to the point of unmanageability (sp?) and frizziness! It needs to be cut. But, here's the thing it has always been long. I need a change, I need something that is easy and will not take work to maintain.

So, this is what my hair basically looks like except my bangs are long and not so pretty. I actually have naturally wavy and curly hair but because it is long, it heavy and the curl does not come out.





I have narrowed it down to five choices, which do you like?







I am torn towards my hair from a couple years ago, Reese Witherspoon's hair and Jenna Elfman's hair. I also really like Nicole Ritchie's hair. I just don't know, maybe I should bring all four of the pictures to my hairdresser and we can brainstorm?

So, leave me a comment and let me know which you like and I will post my hair after my appointment on Saturday.

Yeah.......

It's been awhile, I know it's been awhile. I have just been going through many things and many emotions and I am the kind of person that keeps things in and besides who wants to read about someone bitching and moaning. Lately, my life is one big bitch and moan, the bad days seems to outweigh the good days.

I have tried reaching out to friends, but they are not reaching back which makes things worse for me. I guess I will just have to move on without them, which saddens me, but sometimes you just have to do what you have to do.

I take too much medicine!

So. as I was trying to fall asleep last night. I was thinking about how my sleeping pill was not working, its weird, one night it works great and I fall asleep immediately and another night it still takes me almost an hour to fall asleep.

I realized I take alot of medicine.

In the morning, I take 6 pills, 8 pills if I have a headache. At night, I take 12 more pills. In total, I take 18 - 20 pills. That is crazy! And I am still walking funny, my balance is still off, I am shaking, my hands hurt, I have headaches, still in pain and if I don't take my medicine I would be 10 times worse!

I am just tired of taking pills. Why can't they just cure me? Is that too much to ask?

A new haircut?

I have struggled with my hair for years.

I have curly/wavy hair. I think that one of the reasons why I have struggled with my hair is because I have tried to make it something it isn't. I try to make it straight, when obviously it isn't. The one time that I struggle most with it is during the summer. The humidity and the heat hit it and poof, frizziness! I hate it!

But this year, I am going to a mew hairdresser, she specializes in Curly hair. And also, I have a new haircut I would like to try.

This is it:


What do you think? Obviously, I won't have it straight, but it looks like it has alot of layers and frame the face. And I am loving the bangs! I love the color too, but I don't think I could pull off something so light eventhough I love the red!

Foods I am Craving...

I am from Chicago and I so miss the food. St. Louis does not have any of these foods and I am so craving them.

1. Pierogis
2. Klotchkis (not sure that is the right way to spell it)
3. Giordanos Deep Dish Pizza
4. Portillos

Anyone from Chicago wanna send me one of these foods?

Could it get much worse?

Apparently, it can.

I am used to all the walking and balance problems that have come with my condition. I am used to falling on the floor and all the bruises, running into the wall. The vision problems, the slurred speech and all the medications. I thought I had experienced it all, apparently not.

About a week ago, my hands just stopped working right. I tried to organize some papers and couldn't even hold them and shuffle them. And this past weekend I couldn't even hold a spoon or a fork or even a burger without pain. Today, I can't even make a fist it is so painful. I told a friend of mine my hands feel like painful swelled sausages and they do! I called my nuerologist, I hope he prescribes me something so I can get some relief! But I suspect this is just the beginning of the fun!