Monday, April 20, 2009

A new haircut?

I have struggled with my hair for years.

I have curly/wavy hair. I think that one of the reasons why I have struggled with my hair is because I have tried to make it something it isn't. I try to make it straight, when obviously it isn't. The one time that I struggle most with it is during the summer. The humidity and the heat hit it and poof, frizziness! I hate it!

But this year, I am going to a mew hairdresser, she specializes in Curly hair. And also, I have a new haircut I would like to try.

This is it:

What do you think? Obviously, I won't have it straight, but it looks like it has alot of layers and frame the face. And I am loving the bangs! I love the color too, but I don't think I could pull off something so light eventhough I love the red!

Foods I am Craving...

I am from Chicago and I so miss the food. St. Louis does not have any of these foods and I am so craving them.

1. Pierogis
2. Klotchkis (not sure that is the right way to spell it)
3. Giordanos Deep Dish Pizza
4. Portillos

Anyone from Chicago wanna send me one of these foods?

Could it get much worse?

Apparently, it can.

I am used to all the walking and balance problems that have come with my condition. I am used to falling on the floor and all the bruises, running into the wall. The vision problems, the slurred speech and all the medications. I thought I had experienced it all, apparently not.

About a week ago, my hands just stopped working right. I tried to organize some papers and couldn't even hold them and shuffle them. And this past weekend I couldn't even hold a spoon or a fork or even a burger without pain. Today, I can't even make a fist it is so painful. I told a friend of mine my hands feel like painful swelled sausages and they do! I called my nuerologist, I hope he prescribes me something so I can get some relief! But I suspect this is just the beginning of the fun!

Friday, April 17, 2009

Migraines Suck!

I have been dealing with migraines since I was 15. I hate them. They make me nauseous, I need to/can only lie in bed all day, the room has to be dark, no light (too sensitive) and no sound.

I am taking two different medications for prevention, which totals six pills a night, and yet I still get them. I had my third one this week. The first two I think totally had to do with the weather, it was rainy and humid. I get them with the change in the pressure. But why I got one today I have no idea!

But thank God, I had my trusty friend Excedrin. It is a friggin lifesaver! Although, my neurologist doesn't like me taking it all that often, I think it's because of the caffeine.

Like, I said I am on prevention medications, but it doesn't always work. When I do get them, besides Excedrin I don't know how else to get rid of them. What do you do?

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Am I really 32?

Do you ever not feel your age? I have not felt my age for awhile now. I am 32, but don't feel like it. I admit that my condition does make me feel old most days. How could you not feel old when you have no energy to get out of bed and your joints ache so bad when you bend them. But there's time when I just feel young, I can't really explain why, but I just do.

I think it has to do with the fact that some of my friends are younger than me (okay pretty much all of them) and they have at least one kid if not two already and they are so much smarter than me.

I feel like I am 27. If I was 27, I would still be living in Chicago and just meeting Sven, that was such an exciting time!

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Oops, I did it again.

After getting into bed last night and pulling the covers up, I rolled out of bed and onto the floor.

I couldn't get back up becauce every muscle in my body was relaxed, so Sven had to get to get out of bed and pick me up and put me back in bed. And to ensure that I did not fall again he literally tucked the sheets into the bed, I was going nowhere and I didn't.

Wonder what I will do tonight. Let's see, I have rolled out of bed twice, triped once and legs gave out another. Boy, I am reall making Sven laugh!

Monday, April 6, 2009


Just have to say GO CUBS!

My third Entry

Check out the giveaway on my friend Trisha's blog. Her photography is awesome! She has taken mine and Sven's anniversary pictures.


I can't believe I forgot to tell you about Wurstfest.

What is Wurstfest you ask. It is Sausage fest in Hermann, MO the last week of March. Sven and I have been going for the last years, the last two years, my parents and my sister have joined us. We have so much fun when we go. It is ten different vendors with 100 different kinds of sausage and bratwurst. And it only costs $6 for all you can eat sausage!

Our freezer is packed with sausage, thank god it is getting warmer and we can start grilling!

They already have their 2010 and 2011 dates set!

Sunday, April 5, 2009

I said what?

So, I told you a little while ago that I started taking a sleeping pill. Since starting taking I have been sleeping like a rock. I mean as soon as my head hits the pillow, I have no idea what is going on, I remember nothing!

So, every morning I ask Sven if I did anything during the night. I guess I do this because I have heard that Ambien makes people sleepwalk, sleepeat, sleepdrive, and other strange things. Maybe I also ask for my own amusement. Well, the the other night, I took my Ambien and Sven walked me to bed, he had to stay up a little longer to do some work. So, I was in bed with the TV on falling asleep and Sven walked in, I remember him walking in, but that's all I remember. And in the morning, I asked if I did anything weird and he said yes.

Apparently, when he came in for bed I called him "Mom".

Um, I have nothing to say to that except for "I'm Sorry". At least he is getting some laughter out of this.

Happy Birthday Rean!

It is my baby's birthday. Not Sven, but Rean, my kitty cat, my baby girl. Sven and I found her on and we knew instantly she was the one for us.

Sven brought her home (to my apartment in Chicago) in 2003. She was so tiny when Sven brang her home, we could feel her ribs when we pet her. My mission was to put some weight on her, I did do that, she weighs a whopping 7 pds. now!

Because she was from a rescue we are not totally sure how old she is. We got her in 2oo3, took her to the vet and he said she could be anywhere from 2 to 4 years old, so looking at her we said she is 3 years old. So, we are assuming she was born in 2000 and today she is 9 years old.

I can't believe it. I can't believe how much I love this cat. She kept me company in Chicago when Sven was in St. Louis. She comforts me when I am sick, makes me laugh when I have a bad day.

And to see who I am talking about, here are pictures of Rean:

Happy Birthday Rean!

Saturday, April 4, 2009

It is getting warm and I am sad.

As the weather gets warmer I see more and more people out and about and that should make me happy, but it actually makes me sad.

I see couples or just people alone on their two wheel bike and realize I can't do that. I haven't riden a bike since I was probably 14 years old. I so desperately want to ride a bike, I just don't have the balance to ride a bike, I need to ride a three wheel bike. That's fine with me. But have you ever tried to find one? They are impossible to find and if you find the right one you want, expect to pay an arm and a leg.

One night after dinner I would love to go for a walk around the neighborhood with Sven, how nice would that be. For most, yes it would, for me, can't do it. Even holding onto Sven's hand, I pull on his arm, veer off to the side and trip all while tireing myself out, same thing with my walker.

And running, I would love to just run. But alas my coordination is gone. If I were to run now I would just trip and fall and most would point and laugh.

So I should be happy, and I am. Happy that it is starting to get warm and sunny and I can wear my capris and sandals, but sad that I can't be like everyone else, that's all that I want.

Friday, April 3, 2009

I sleep now!

I have been dealing with insomnia for years. It comes in bouts. Many years years ago when I was in high school I took Ambien and loved it! Then I went off it, don't know why prolly cause I took myself off all my medications after college.

Fast forward to me planning our wedding. Me living in St. Louis and the wedding in Chicago. All of my vendors were in Chicago, family in Chicago, I was so stressed and on top of that I was not sleeping! I went to my doctor as fast as I could and got a prescription for a sleeping pill, I got Lunesta. I was sleeping. And after the honeymoon, my sleeping went back to normal and things were right with the world for awhile. Then my insomnia started in again, I would just lie in bed, I cried myself to sleep, nothing worked. I went to my doctor and got a prescription for Lunesta, I mean it worked so beautifully before. I took it, nothing. It would take me two, three hours with the medication to fall asleep. I just stopped it and my sleepin somehow went back to normal.

But then, Wednesday night, it took me FIVE HOURS to fall asleep. That was the last straw. I called my nuerologist, told him what happened and I got a prescription for Ambien. Now, I have only taken it for two nights, but for the first time in YEARS, I slept through the night. It feels so good to get some sleep.

Funny story:
On Wednesday, when I took the Ambien (it is fast acting) I was sitting on the couch. Sven had to walk me to bed cause I was out of it. I was in the bedroom on my side of the bed, taking off my rings and watch and when I was in bed I had to reach to get something. Because I wasn't quite all there I rolled off the bed onto the floor and I couldn't get up! Sven had to come get me just laughing the whole time!