MIA

I have been MIA for longer than I wanted, some interesting things have happened. After my surgery two weeks ago, my eye was very, very overcorrected, I mean my eye was all the way in the left corner and I could not see out of both eyes, only one. Not fun. I have so many bruises and am so sore cause I fell so much and walked into things. So, it was decided by my doctor and myself that I would have surgery again to help fix the problem. So, I went in on the 28th or Monday to see my doctor, we decide I need surgery and the 30th or that Wednesday, I am at the Surgery Center about to have my second surgery in two weeks on the same eye and on the same muscles. So, I had the second surgery on Wednesday, I went to my doctor and the verdict: I am still overcorrected :( I can't see out of my left eye without seeing double, so I keep my eye closed. My depth perception and spacial perception are all off, so Sven is helping me walk. I had this surgery back in 2006 on my right eye and it went beautifully, my left eye is just being stubborn, but really I think it's the Ataxia, rearing it's head again. I will prolly be MIA again for awhile until this gets fixed. Wish me luck, that it does soon!

Surgery

My eye surgery is tomorrow and I am nervous and stressed about it. I know everything is going to go fine, I have this surgery before, back in 2006 and the same surgeon/ doctor is performing the surgery. The doctor that is performing the surgery is Dr. Andrew Blatt. I swear, he is the man to see if you have eye issues! I have been seeing him since I have been in St. Louis. And I credit my sister in law to finding him, she referred me to an eye doctor and he noticed my eyes were doing some wonky things that he referred me to Dr. Blatt, who has been taking care of me since. I prolly won't be posting much for a little while, while I recover. So, wish me luck! And wish Sven luck, cause he has to take care of me!

I am taking a break from watching football, since one of my teams the Texans are doing really bad and against the Rams! No offense Rams fans, but the Rams defense is not all that great, but the offense has been doing really good! So, I did get a comment on what I should talk about and my wonderful sister in law said to talk about how much I love Thirty One products. I know, I know, wonderful, you think? Yes, wonderful. She has made my transition to St. Louis so much easier and my day to day life so much better, I could not have not moved hare without having her here! Okay, onto Thirty One. Oh how can I express my love for thee. My sister in law, Melissa, I call her Missy, is my Consultant and I am prolly one of her best customers! I buy for myself, I buy for friends and I buy for friends and family that just had babies. They have something for everything and I don't know the names for everything, I am sure Missy will chime in to help me! I have a couple of Large Utility Totes which I put in my trunk and use it for when Sven and I go grocery shopping. Each one can hold 3 - 4 bags and then when you get home you can put the tote on your shoulder with the shoulder straps, so much easier! And then for your frozen and cold items, I have the insulated tote, but it is not just for the grocery store, oh no my friends! I use it for when we are travel to Chicago, I put our drinks in there and our crackers and beef jerky, etc., they are also great for picnics! Another great thing for travel, is the zipper pouch. It holds so much, I can put my shampoo and conditioner and I get the big sizes and still have room for my face cleansers. You can also use them to put your kids toys in them or you could put diapers and wipes in them. I have many purses and totes, the one I love is the Metro Retro Bag. It holds everything I need it to and it is great for when I travel to Chicago or I fly and I have seen many people use it as a purse which is brillant! They have things to keep you organized, to keep your kids organized! So, go buy some Thirty One products, cause you know you want to, I mean everyone is doing it! And if you do order, order from Missy, her page is,

In One Week..........

In one week, next Wednsday, I am having eye surgery, specifically Strabismus Eye Surgery. Strabismus surgery is surgery on the extraocular muscles to correct the misalignment of the eyes. With approximately 1.2 million procedures each year, extraocular muscle surgery is the third most common eye surgery in the United States. I had this surgery back in 2006 and it went very well and I was able to wear contacts for my wedding! For years I have been dealing with double vision and nystagmus. The amount of prisms that I had in my glasses progressively got more and more to the point where my double vision was all the time and my eye was drifting so it was surgery time! I am anxious, scared and excited all at once. I am not looking forward to the anesthesia or the recovery but just want it dont, so I can start seeing better!

Fashion Truck

The St. Louis Post Dispatch posted this article: Would you buy a dress from the back of a truck? http://www.stltoday.com/business/local/would-you-buy-a-dress-from-the-back-of-a/article_97e6bb6a-7542-5197-b2a3-4fcbe2b0165c.html I think I would. Would you? Let me know!

DA BEARS!

I saw today that the Bears game was today at noon on FOX and really thought it was going to be on TV, cause the last couple Bears games have been on TV. I wass talking to a friend, who is also a Bears fan and he said the reason why they don't broadcast the Bears game here is because somehow the Rams block it from being shown. What? Now. why in the world would you block the Bears game? I even had my "This Girl Loves Da Bears" shirt on! So, I had FOX on and was watching the pre-game show and after the pre-game show, what came on? Not the Bears, but Paid Programming for some beauty moisturizer! That is some deliberate blocking, but no football on FOX, that's just blasphemy! The only game that was on tv was.....you guessed it, the Rams, sorry but I just don't like watching them (I am not liking St. Louis right now). But, I watched them, it's football, I can't resist! I am watching football in a whole new way this season! I am participating in my very first fantasy football league this year. I love football but all the workings, I don't get. At the start, I had no clue what I was doing, but that is okay, my sister, my cousins and some uncles didn't have a clue either, but I am getting the hang of it. I am 2-2 going into week 5 and hope to beat my dad! But, if anyone has any tips or advice please leave me a comment!

Since no one voted on which topic I should start with, I am going to pick the topic and I am going to choose how I am obsessed with the "Murder" Channel.

The "Murder" Channel is Investigation Discovery, Sven dubbed it the "Murder" Channel.  I have always been interested in how people think and why they do the things they do.  What makes someone that has a normal childhood start killing and why someone who is abused all their life finally lets all their rage out on one person.
I think this interest led to my interest in the mob during the Prohibition Era, ecspecially Al Capone!  It is fascinating to me how they basically lived two lives.  The life of crime and corruption that we all hear about and then their charitable side, which you don't hear about.  I am reading the book Uncle Al written by his grand niece Deidre Marie Capone.  Very Fascinating, it definately shows a different side of Al Capone and the Capone family and also offers up different explanations about events we have heard about.  Like Al Capone had nothing to do with the Valentine's Day Massacre and the reason why he was crazy or not all there in his later years was not all because of syphillis but because of the drugs they gave him to treat syphillis.

I did go to school for Marketing cause I was interested in finding out why consumers buy what they do.  Did you know you had to take boring business classes until you got to the good stuff?  Well, the business and math and accounting classes did not agree with me, truthfully, school did not agree with me!

I'm Baaaaaaaaaaaaack!

Has it really been three years since I last wrote?  Wow, so much has happened since then!  Let's see and I will make separate posts about each.  I am gluten and dairy free now, I had rotator cuff surgery, we got a dog, I am having eye surgery on the 16th, we got a Keurig machine, we got a Nu Step Machine, we got new couches, I love Thirty-One products, I am obsessed with the "murder" channel, I am participating in my families Football Fantasy League this year and I got Botox in my Bladder.
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What's been going on with everyone in my absence?  What did I miss?

Which subject should I start with first?  You let me know in the comments!

Here it is!

So, here it is:



This is my hair after it was cut, I had not played with it yet.
I absolutely love it!
I really think it is going to be easy to take care of and not much work.

My tresses are a mess!

I hate my hair.

It is long, to the point of unmanageability (sp?) and frizziness! It needs to be cut. But, here's the thing it has always been long. I need a change, I need something that is easy and will not take work to maintain.

So, this is what my hair basically looks like except my bangs are long and not so pretty. I actually have naturally wavy and curly hair but because it is long, it heavy and the curl does not come out.





I have narrowed it down to five choices, which do you like?







I am torn towards my hair from a couple years ago, Reese Witherspoon's hair and Jenna Elfman's hair. I also really like Nicole Ritchie's hair. I just don't know, maybe I should bring all four of the pictures to my hairdresser and we can brainstorm?

So, leave me a comment and let me know which you like and I will post my hair after my appointment on Saturday.

Yeah.......

It's been awhile, I know it's been awhile. I have just been going through many things and many emotions and I am the kind of person that keeps things in and besides who wants to read about someone bitching and moaning. Lately, my life is one big bitch and moan, the bad days seems to outweigh the good days.

I have tried reaching out to friends, but they are not reaching back which makes things worse for me. I guess I will just have to move on without them, which saddens me, but sometimes you just have to do what you have to do.

I take too much medicine!

So. as I was trying to fall asleep last night. I was thinking about how my sleeping pill was not working, its weird, one night it works great and I fall asleep immediately and another night it still takes me almost an hour to fall asleep.

I realized I take alot of medicine.

In the morning, I take 6 pills, 8 pills if I have a headache. At night, I take 12 more pills. In total, I take 18 - 20 pills. That is crazy! And I am still walking funny, my balance is still off, I am shaking, my hands hurt, I have headaches, still in pain and if I don't take my medicine I would be 10 times worse!

I am just tired of taking pills. Why can't they just cure me? Is that too much to ask?

A new haircut?

I have struggled with my hair for years.

I have curly/wavy hair. I think that one of the reasons why I have struggled with my hair is because I have tried to make it something it isn't. I try to make it straight, when obviously it isn't. The one time that I struggle most with it is during the summer. The humidity and the heat hit it and poof, frizziness! I hate it!

But this year, I am going to a mew hairdresser, she specializes in Curly hair. And also, I have a new haircut I would like to try.

This is it:


What do you think? Obviously, I won't have it straight, but it looks like it has alot of layers and frame the face. And I am loving the bangs! I love the color too, but I don't think I could pull off something so light eventhough I love the red!

Foods I am Craving...

I am from Chicago and I so miss the food. St. Louis does not have any of these foods and I am so craving them.

1. Pierogis
2. Klotchkis (not sure that is the right way to spell it)
3. Giordanos Deep Dish Pizza
4. Portillos

Anyone from Chicago wanna send me one of these foods?

Could it get much worse?

Apparently, it can.

I am used to all the walking and balance problems that have come with my condition. I am used to falling on the floor and all the bruises, running into the wall. The vision problems, the slurred speech and all the medications. I thought I had experienced it all, apparently not.

About a week ago, my hands just stopped working right. I tried to organize some papers and couldn't even hold them and shuffle them. And this past weekend I couldn't even hold a spoon or a fork or even a burger without pain. Today, I can't even make a fist it is so painful. I told a friend of mine my hands feel like painful swelled sausages and they do! I called my nuerologist, I hope he prescribes me something so I can get some relief! But I suspect this is just the beginning of the fun!

Migraines Suck!

I have been dealing with migraines since I was 15. I hate them. They make me nauseous, I need to/can only lie in bed all day, the room has to be dark, no light (too sensitive) and no sound.

I am taking two different medications for prevention, which totals six pills a night, and yet I still get them. I had my third one this week. The first two I think totally had to do with the weather, it was rainy and humid. I get them with the change in the pressure. But why I got one today I have no idea!

But thank God, I had my trusty friend Excedrin. It is a friggin lifesaver! Although, my neurologist doesn't like me taking it all that often, I think it's because of the caffeine.

Like, I said I am on prevention medications, but it doesn't always work. When I do get them, besides Excedrin I don't know how else to get rid of them. What do you do?

Am I really 32?

Do you ever not feel your age? I have not felt my age for awhile now. I am 32, but don't feel like it. I admit that my condition does make me feel old most days. How could you not feel old when you have no energy to get out of bed and your joints ache so bad when you bend them. But there's time when I just feel young, I can't really explain why, but I just do.

I think it has to do with the fact that some of my friends are younger than me (okay pretty much all of them) and they have at least one kid if not two already and they are so much smarter than me.

I feel like I am 27. If I was 27, I would still be living in Chicago and just meeting Sven, that was such an exciting time!

Oops, I did it again.

After getting into bed last night and pulling the covers up, I rolled out of bed and onto the floor.

I couldn't get back up becauce every muscle in my body was relaxed, so Sven had to get to get out of bed and pick me up and put me back in bed. And to ensure that I did not fall again he literally tucked the sheets into the bed, I was going nowhere and I didn't.

Wonder what I will do tonight. Let's see, I have rolled out of bed twice, triped once and legs gave out another. Boy, I am reall making Sven laugh!

GO CUBS GO!

Just have to say GO CUBS!

My third Entry

Check out the giveaway on my friend Trisha's blog. Her photography is awesome! She has taken mine and Sven's anniversary pictures.